Today’s post will be my reactions to passages from “Saint Marie” by Louise Erdich, as published in the March 1984 edition of The Atlantic.
“I was going up there to pray as good as they could, because I don’t have that much Indian blood. And they never thought they’d have a girl from this reservation as a saint they’d have to kneel to” (1).
What I love about this passage is that Marie isn’t going up the hill to submit to or join the convent. She doesn’t just want to be one of them. Marie is convinced that she is going to be the best of them, the one they will all kneel down to. I admire that kind of confidence in a person, especially a person like Marie who is coming from nothing and has no real reason to be that confident, except for the fact that something inside of her is telling her she will be great.
“I was ignorant. I was near age fourteen. The sky is just about the size of my ignorance. And just as pure. And that the pure wideness of my ignorance is what got me up the hill to the Sacred Heart Convent and brought me back down alive” (1).
Aren’t we all this ignorant at fourteen? The best ignorance is that which allows us to be brave and take the chance, even when there’s no way that we should. The naivete that tells us we know just as much as anyone else, and they should shut up and listen to what we have to say. As we get older, and probably wiser, we become aware just how much we don’t know. And, that knowledge tells us to sit and be quiet, to listen and learn, to not take a chance because we’ll look like idiots if we speak up. It’s much safer, and not nearly as exhilarating. How much do we miss out on in the name of wisdom?
“I was like those bush Indians who stole the holy black hat of a Jesuit and swallowed little scraps of it to cure their fevers. But the hat itself carried smallpox, and it was killing them with belief” (3)
So many volumes spoken in just one line - about blind belief, about America’s treatment of the Native Americans, about faith in general.
“She used this deadly hook-pole for catching Satan by surprise. He could have entered without your knowing it through your lips or your nose or any one of your seven openings and gained your mind” (3)
Although this seems to be a very outdated view of Christianity, isn’t this in effect how many conservative believers still view the world? You play video games? - Satan has corrupted you! You listen to popular music? - Satan has infiltrated your mind! And let’s not even talk about those shows you’re watching or the books you read - those are just evil filth waiting to steal your soul. Why is it that people who haven’t read, watched, played or listened to things are so convinced that they know more about these things than the people who actually have consumed them and understand them? A very well meaning lady at my church is convinced that Pokemon is simply opening the door for the devil to take over our children’s minds. She can’t tell you what a Pokemon is, yet she is convinced that they are evil. I have no idea how she came to possess this knowledge, but she is positive that she knows best and everyone should stop playing this Pokemon game. I’m sure that Sister Leopolda would agree.
“He wants you,“ she said. “That’s the difference. I give you love.” (5)
What is love anyway? Sister Leopolda would argue that it is beating the snot out of a child in order to save them from the Devil. I like to think that most people would agree that beating a child with a wooden pole is wrong - but I think that the gist of Leopolda’s argument is alive and well in America today.
Basically, as I see it, the crux of Erdich’s story is alive and well in America today. We claim we want to celebrate youth, innovation, and creativity. We want the young people to feel passionate about something, and then rise up to follow their dreams. But whenever they do, America slams the door and tells them they are wrong, they don’t know enough yet, they should listen to what their elders tell them is right. Their elders love America and just want what’s best for it, and if it takes some questionable moral choices to make that happen, well, that’s just how it’s going to be. The youth of America are like Marie - full of dreams with just enough naivete to think that they are unstoppable. They are convinced that they can make their dreams come true.